Before and After

My name is Shauna. I’m a wife to an amazing husband, mother of 3 little girls, and a nurse. I use to think I was selfless because I bend over backwards to make my husband, kids and patients happy. Slowly, I’m realizing it’s actually pretty selfish to do that. When I’m busy keeping everyone happy, it’s more for me than them- the satisfaction I get out of it. It’s selfish because I’m not giving them the best of me when I’m focused outwardly on this need to please. So I’m going to let some of that go. I’m going to be intentionally selfish, in ways that make me a better version of me, so I can share that with the world. This is a journey though, I’ve been doing a lot of things and building a lot of bad habits for a decade or more. Change is not going to happen overnight, but I have full faith in myself that I can be better, do better and give better.

I originally planned to use a pen name, but have decided against it. I am afraid to put this out into the world, but I feel compelled to share my story. I’m afraid of being judged and meanness. But I love other people’s stories of how they overcome everyday issues like weight or parenting. I’ve tried searching for blogs and vlogs for weight loss, but keep finding the story from the “after” place. I’m starting at the “before” and putting it out to the world that I’m chasing that “after”. So, if you’re joining me and it’s weeks or months into my journey, circle back to the beginning- don’t compare my middle or end with your start. If you’re joining me in real-time, please be patient with my progress, I’m doing the best I can in this moment!