Day 14: Shields


man wearing gray and red armour standing on the streets
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My children are my little shields in social situations.

I went to a baby shower yesterday. It was a two hour drive and I carpooled with the mama-to-be, so it was an all day event.  It was so fun. I left at 8am and did not return until 8:30pm.  I decided not to take any of the girls.  I debated about at least taking the oldest, but I got the impression it was an adults only thing.  I also came to a realization.  I wanted to bring one of the girls because being a mom makes me more comfortable in social situations. I didn’t know anyone else who was going to be there and was very nervous.  If I have one of my kids with me, I feel confident because I’m  looking after them, there’s never a dull moment.  There’s no awkward silence or interactions, it’s just go, go, go with the kids.

I was really proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone and taking a day to just be me.  Not a mom. Just a friend enjoying a party honoring a new mama.  I had a great time and it was an amazing break to not have any little ones demanding my attention.

Plus, the greetings I received when I arrived home from all three of my sweeet girls… priceless.


Day 5: What’s Full Feel Like?

This picture 😂 has little to do with this post…other than I love French fries…. and it’s hilarious!

I’m basically eating a couple snacks, plus one big meal to try to stay under my calorie max (1,800). I’m so used to being stuffed that I find it easier to cope with a little discomfort of starting to re-learn hunger signals, when I know I get to eat a “normal” amount if I hold out.

Old thinking is wanting to follow the philosophy of eating every two hours… but that doesn’t work for me because snacking and grazing leads to more snacking and grazing.  Eating every two hours, only 200-300 calories makes me want more.

I’m going to continue to do what works for now, but I’m more than ready for it evolve as time goes on.

Today is Saturday… it makes me nervous.  At least at work I can’t graze or eat everything in sight.  At work, I’m busy.  At home there’s snacks and idle time.

I can do this though!!!!!!!!!!